My problem now, and just as i though it was moving past it, is that i feel i was your PostSecret. No matter how big the stage was that we stood on, and no matter how many hands we shook and smiles we pushed out, we always knew that at the end of the day we go to the other and be completely and utterly honest. Secrets we hadn't shared with anyone else. It created this trust and, i'll be honest, i fell in love with the person that no one else knew even though so many had tried to get in close enough t see it.
I miss talking about everything. I miss talking period, but this small talk kills me. Only because i was sure that my place wasn't on this side of things. I never thought i'd be the one receiving the perfect smile, and not getting a chance to know what's really going on behind the makeup. I'm not sure i want what everyone else gets. I wanted the PostSecret side as well. You in all of your funny surprises and darkest worries.
I never kept a secret from you... until the last time I saw you when I was asked how all was and I said "fine". Don't get me wrong life is great, gorgeous even... but not quite fine. Something in me hasn't been able to rest since august.
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YOU'RE welcome!!! (said in the Roy the Treehouse and Fantasy Land owner voice)
:)
Crazy story- the guy that created PostSecret came to Tech the Wednesday before Spring Break... and the presentation was stinkin intense! People walked up to the front of the auditorium and said their secrets OUT LOUD in front of 2,500 people... and then people there from PostSecret created one of those little postcard-things. Cray-Cray (as the girls would say).
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